Well, technically, it is not supposed to be triggering, but I don’t know how fucked up your brain is. After all, you never know with an ED. Anyway, take what I say with a grain of salt. I’m not saying you should not eat the magic 2500 calories because you are going to turn into a whale and that all members of CC are wrong. Use your freaking common sense.
As some of you might know, I was a CalorieCount member for a while. I used the forums to try to get support for my ED recovery, and well…we know how successful this has proven to be. If you are not familiar with the site, you might not get the post. And it’s better this way, trust me.
Anyway, a lot of stuffs bugged me. As I listed my pet peeves, I realized that I had so many that they would not fit into one post, hence the ”Part 1” in the title. Today, we are going to focus on the Gushy Gushy Talk, aka the baby-talking, the cutesy language, the ”oh you’re so inspiring” crap that is going on in the Weight Gain and Health & Support forums.
1. The ass-kissing and cutesy language.
As soon as someone says something like:
I decided that ED is NOT going to win,…..I am ready to kick ED’s ass and never restrict another day in my life*
all the ED recoverer sheep are replying the same thing:
you are SO inspiring to everyone else, your a star, ily muchly ^^**
You know what? How do you know you are never going to restrict? Talking is one thing, doing it is another thing.
*And then 2 days later, the same person posts a 1500cals meal plan filled with salad + mustard dressing, and 35calories yogurts with her exercise listed and talks about how she is ”back on track and not letting ED win”.
So…that was your idea of ”never restricting”? Wow, how inspirational of you…
**WTF. ”ily muchly”???!!! Did you sniffed powdered sugar sprinkles?!!
2. They sound like a bunch of spoiled crying babies.
Whenever somebody complains about somebody having commented on ‘how much they eat’ (therefore, implying that they eat too much and that they are fat) or complains about somebody wanting to lose weight (therefore, being super triggering and inconsiderate), their ED recovery buddies roll around and go all:
What is wrong with people in today’s society?
They seem beyond rude and ignorant, keep doing what’s right for you. You’re such an inspiration, I’m so proud of all your progress.
Like other posters said, don’t panic and make them seem like the ignorant idiots they are.
So basically, everybody who says something that your disordered brain doesn’t like or that your disordered brain twisted is an ignorant idiot.
Your nutritionist/doctor can get lost! He/She doesn’t have any experience with ED, don’t listen to him/her!
…because I’m sure that, you, a 14 years old who has an eating disorder and attempting recovery, went to medical school and got a degree in nutrition or medicine. Everybody should take your advice, oh, Amazing 14 Years Old Inspirational Recovery Role Model.
3. Some of them are so freaking attention-seeking.
They tell about their struggles to a bunch of strangers on the internet just so they want to get baby-talked and cuddled up like a 5 year old. This was posted in the ”How did you challenge your ED” thread:
i was low for 2 days and neeeeded to make sure i got there yesterday and at bedtime i had 14 tbsp crunchy supermarket peanut butter loaded with salt and sugar.
i then threw the jar out cus the guilt is over-riding
Ok. How is that ”challenging your ED”? What do you want us to say, that you are ”OMG AN INSPIRATION FOR EATING PEANUT BUTTER” or that you are ”OMG AN INSPIRATION FOR EATING PEANUT BUTTER SO DON’T LET ED GET TO YOU! DON’T FEEL GUILTY LOVIE!!! YOU ARE AMAZING!!!!”.
I don’t know about you, but the more I’m progressing into my recovery, the more I don’t feel the need to shout my struggles all over the place. If you need to ”get it out”, talk to a therapist, a friend in real life or via PM, a parent…doing it over the web like this is just screaming ”attention seeker”.
4. At a certain point, they all sound fake.
They are just repeating the same thing over and over. Ever noticed how they all talk about the same stuffs? It seems as if they say those things just so that they can ”belong” to the ED Recoverers Clique.
yesterday i ate load of peanut butter ive tried to stop eating it at night but failing cus i neve get enough cals on in the morning. so i had 5 tbsp and fresh fig for dinner but then a massive supper. i never had fruit in the evening either so..
loads and loads of PB with fresh dates and a PB & banana smoothie.
and then i met 3000 but thought forget it and got 2 more big tbsp PB. so i had 3200. with PB and sugary fruit.
ED made me SO guilty, but i beat it haha! i normally restrict before my weigh in too and i havent
You know what? I don’t give a fucking rat ass. Sorry, but it’s true. You want what, recognition from strangers? You want strangers to congratulate you for recovering? Sure I can understand that. But you’ll never recover if you don’t do it for yourself and keep imitating other recoverers, just so that you can belong to a group that gives you recognition. And a group composed of strangers from Internet, at that…pathetic.
5. They make recovery sound like a fun game.
Like a bunch of screaming 12 years old little children playing ”recovery”. Again, in the ”How did you challenged your ED” thread, one girl even kept a record of the amount of peanut butter she ate, and encouraged others to try to beat her.
Girl A: Had nutella and chocolate o’s despite telling myself not to eat dinner.
Had jiff too.
I need to stop eating pb out of the jar.
Girl B: why stop, did you beat my 14 tbsp record ?
Girl A: AND I think i beat you Girl B. >:-) You gotta catch up fool! haha
Girl B: noooooo
*hands over award winning trophy*
An award winning trophy.
A fucking effing winning award trophy.
For eating freaking peanut butter.
Someone pass me the garbage can, because I’m gonna puke.
Oh, and last time I checked, Girl B was swelling with pride because her new record was 21 or 22 tbsp.
Recovery is not a fucking game, bitch. Grow the fuck up and go burn some calories by picking up the phone and calling Guinness Worlds Records.
I’ll finish this post on that note, because this is driving me BONKERS. As you can see, I had to go over there to refresh my memories and take some quotes, and gosh…the stupidities I saw!! Even worse than what I’ve been used to. I almost threw my laptop across the room. You guys better enjoy the CC Pet Peeves series, because I’m fuming right now. I need a drink. Bye.