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Bitch, Quit Lying!

18 Feb

You guys might be (or not) surprised by how much those HLB/Inspiration Role Models lie or are misleading you:

  • about their intake: they either make the food appear huge so you think they eat a buttload (see how they make you believe they are just naturally skinny here), or they post tiny meals so that you think they eat healthy and all (when some of them just restrict during the week and go crazy during the weekend)
  • about their issues related to eating disorder tendencies or exercise addiction
  • about whether or not they have an ED, etc.

They are no Pringle. They are Lays.

Lay's, you are a liar!!

Believe me. I know a few big/popular bloggers that claim to be ED free, but they either:

  • are aware that they have a problem and don’t address it to their readers. So not ‘lying’ per say, but misleading (hence why I was so adamant to point out that I was NOT recovered)
  • are in denial about their healthy/unhealthy relationship with food/exercise, and influence their ED-free public with unhealthy behaviors and enable their eating disordered public into keeping those unhealthy behaviors.
Of course, when people call them out or even just question their so-called healthy relationship with food…oh, the mass of White Knighters that comes along in the comment section!

Now…why do they do that?

  1. They don’t care about that 90% of their readers are suffering from a mental illness, they like the page views. If a restricted food diary blog is working, then they won’t change it.
  2. They like being portrayed as a role model, whether it is as a Recovery Queen or as a Health & Fitness Queen or as a Chia Seed n’ PB Queen. They need to protect their Empire.
  3. They like the attention the readers (eating disordered or not) give to them
  4.  They are scared of confrontation. They don’t want to have to explain themselves. They much rather do as if there wasn’t any problem with them to begin with, and get page views as usual. Opening up means changes. The readers’s attitude would change. Changes are scary.
An example*:
*If I see anybody calling me ”rude” for giving names, let me remind you that you are on a blog called ”Asian Bitch”, not ”Cutie Poopie Little Peanut Butter & Oatmeal Runner”.

You know, that Seventeen mag? Well, they are doing some kind of Healthy Living movement and chose 3 young bloggers to give tips about healthy living. Or more recently, 2 bloggers, because according to the mag, Taralynn ‘dropped out of the program by herself’. Personally, I think she has been kicked out after several people complained to Seventeen about this girl having an eating disorder and promoting anorexia.

Now, you might think ‘Oh, people are overreacting, nowadays every disordered people see disordered tendencies in everyone!’, which is understandable since a lot of ED recoverers are overly sensitive.

But this is batshit crazy. As in, there is no doubt that this girl has an ED, and lied to all of her followers. Note that she changed her username after she has been discovered, but people quoted her. Here’s a blog where there are proofs of her stealing people’s recipes and pictures, and photoshopping them onto her own plates.

So, all in all (because I know some of you just skimp the post and look for pictures of food or recipe, in vain):

  • Seventeen mag is stupid
  • Taralynn needs to improve on her Photoshop skills and donate her fancy plates if she’s not even going to use them
  • We lie. That’s what humans do. Healthy Living bloggers are humans. HLB can also lie, so don’t take for granted that all the shit that comes out of their mouth is 100% true, whether it’s about their personal issues or whether it’s about their fitness/nutrition advice, especially if they are not qualified or eat so much protein they are like a walking fart machine.

Q: Which type of those misleading bloggers do you think is worse, those who are aware of their issues but don’t address it, or those who are in denial and perpetuate unhealthy behaviors?

By the way, sorry for the excessive linking. But since I’m not getting paid for blogging, I don’t feel bad about making you giving me page views.


Why ED Recoverers Should Not Strive To Be HLBs + Cranberry Chocolate Chip Protein Cake

7 Dec

Tomorrow is my PE exam.

After being put through the practical exam…

  • sit-ups test
  • push-ups test
  • vertical impulsion test
  • Beep test (Nightmare. Pure. Nightmare.)
  • 6km practical exam (at -5.0C. I almost chocked on my mucus and was never as glad to see a Kleenex box in my life by the end of the run)

…I now have to study the theory for the theoretical exam. All of which I will forget as soon as it’ll be done.

Something that I found interesting was the definition of health and it’s five dimensions (S.P.E.M.S). It made me think of ED recoverers who consider themselves to be a healthy living blogger, or try to be one of them. Here are the 5 dimensions of health, and why I think ED recovers should not/can not be healthy living bloggers.

1) Social Health: ”the ability to develop and maintain meaningful interpersonal relationships, as well as, to adapt to different social situations.”

You cannot achieve this if you have a panic reaction to the words ”eating out”. And yes, it is still a panic reaction if you are trying to change the McDonald’s to the Vegan Cafe, or if you order a 20$ green salad sans dressing, or worse, if you bring your own food.

By calling yourself a Healthy living blogger and posting that you brought your own whole-grain sandwich to a friend’s party because ”white carbs give you a sugar crash/whatever reason your eating-disordered self has came up with”, you might actually be giving disordered thoughts to your readers.

2) Physical Health: ‘‘the optimal functioning of the body’s interconnected physiological systems, such as the respiratory, the cardiovascular, and the immune and endocrine systems.”

Whether you are overweight or underweight, if you are not doing anything about it and haven’t made an effort, (because there ARE people who are healthy even though they are under/overweight), you are not healthy. And no, if you HAVE to run 8-10miles a day so you don’t get crazy, you’re not naturally skinny.

Plus, even is you are physically healthy, you might not be healthy. Physical health is just one dimension out of the 5 (sometimes 6 but only 5 will be in my exam, so we’ll leave it out). Remember, weight restoration does not mean you’re mentally cured.

3) Emotional Health: ”expressing emotions in an appropriate fashion and at an appropriate time. This included qualities such as self-esteem, self-confidence, self-efficacy, optimism, trust, love, and friendship.”

Well, eating disorders comes hand to hand with the lack of most (if not all) the qualities above. It goes better as we progress with recovery, but still.

4) Mental Health: ”the ability to think critically, find solutions, and learn; the ability to grow from experience.”

If you get triggered by Seventeen Magazine who put ultra-skinny Emo-looking raccoon-eyed Taylor Momsen on the cover page and interviewed her about her weight/diet/body, then don’t call yourself a healthy living blogger.

If you get triggered because someone told you looked healthier and you took it as if they said you were fat, then don’t call yourself a healthy living blogger.

The world is full of triggers. You need to grow a thicker skin and be able to rationalize if you want to get through it. Suck it up, grow up.

5) Spiritual Health: ”developing faith in something or someone else beyond yourself; a guiding sense of meaning or value in life. It may involve a belief in a supreme being or a specified way of living as prescribed by a particular religion.”

This one I must admit I have no idea what it means. I’m not into religious stuffs. If there’s a question about this on the exam, I’m screwed.

I think the reason why they want to be a ”healthy living blogger”, is because they want a label. A lot of people have trouble giving up their ED, because they are scared of losing their identities. Without ED, they think they are nothing. They need that label to define who they are. Of course, this is not true, but hey, easier said than done.

By jumping on the Recovery wagon, they are giving up their label (Anorexic, Bulimic, etc).  Who are they, then? They feel lost, they need another label.

So they try to be Healthy Living Blogger, or more precisely, the most inspirational personality among the ED Recovery Community. Of course, I noticed that this often translates to the blogger who… :

  • posts the most recipes with the ”safest” ingredients
  • posts pictures of oatmeal topped with egg whites/sugar-free jam/craisins/”naner”/”strawbzzzz” (at this point you don’t even see the oats)
  • posts pictures of him/her kissing jars of nut butters
  • posts his/her workout or training schedule
  • posts pictures of his/her groceries consisting of 43 Larabars, 23 boxes of PB Puffins cereals/Kashi Go Lean cereal, 24 different squashes (I know how a box of cereal looks like, I’ve been to a grocery store before)
  • leaves the most ass-kissing comments on every healthy-living blogs (”OMG that bowl of oatmeal looks soooo yummiiii!! Chocolate + Spinach + PB? Yes please!! I need to try that ASAP!! :D”)

Basically, the anorexia competition is replaced by the competition between who eats the healthiest, who exercises the most, who has the most fit body, who has the most perfect recovery, who has the most popular blog.

This leads to stress, orthorexia, binge eating, exercise compulsion, etc.

Pretty far from ”healthy living”.


So I have another protein cake recipe. I know, again. Thing is, I usually just use other people’s recipes, and the one I came with by myself are all protein powder based.

Cranberry Chocolate Chip Protein Cake

  • 3 extra-large (120g) egg whites
  • 90g canned pumpkin
  • 15og strawberry or cranberry or vanilla yogurt (I like strawberry the best)
  • 40g Vanilla Whey Protein powder
  • 20g whole wheat flour
  • 30g coconut flour
  • 4 packets of sweetener (1 packet = 2tsp of sugar)
  • 3/4 tsp baking soda
  • 1 tsp baking powder
  • Chocolate chips (or  use chunks, like me)
  • Chopped cranberries* (100g?) (you can use other type of berries: strawberries take a longer time to cook)
  • Water, if necessary
  1. Preheat oven to 375.  Spray a bundt pan with cooking spray or better, use a silicone pan.
  2. Beat the egg white on high speed until foamy. Add the pumpkin and yogurt and beat until well mixed.
  3. Mix the dry ingredients together and add it to the wet mixture with a spatula. Add 1-2 tbsp of water if you feel the batter is too thick
  4. Add cranberries and chocolate chips
  5. Bake for 27-30min, or until a toothpick comes out clean.
  6. Chill before serving.

*microwave half of them with sweetener for 30sec if you want

You can scale down the recipe to 1/2, or even 3/4. I’ve tried that and it works well (but adjust cooking time). You can use any other type of pan, but of course consider the cooking time. For muffins, check after 20min.

Top 5 Most Annoying Posts

19 Nov

Not in particular order. They are all fucking annoying.

1. ”Love yourself, you’re beautiful no matter what everyone says!”

99% of the bloggers who say this actually feel pretty and are having a good day, and writing it down reinforces this idea. Not that it’s bad, it’s just that this is just a projection of how THEY feel. For the reader who is having a bad day, it is not going to do much.

And don’t get me started on ” Operation Beautiful’‘ thing.

A post-it note written by a stranger that most likely projects how HE/SHE feels is not going to make me feel better if I’m having self-esteem issues.

If I’m having a bad day and feeling like crap, and see a”Love yourself, you’re beautiful!’‘ post-it on the woman washroom’s mirror, I will rip it off, tear it apart, and, if the person who wrote this note is still around, make her eat it.

Yeah, you don’t want to be around me when I’m having a bad day.

Side-Note: Now that I just wrote this, it would be super hypocritical of me to sign up and become a LOVE blogger.

Damn it. I really wanted that granola.

Granola VS Dignity

—> Dignity wins

Free granola VS Dignity 

—> …we’ll say Dignity.

2. Talk about eating an unclean food like you’ve accomplished 4 triathlons back to back.

And here is my dessert: DONUT! Nomnomnom! So good! Nothing wrong with enjoying sweets once in a while, huh? I love treating myself, I definitely deserved it! The fluffy inside, crispy sugary outside…See, white carbs didn’t kill me!

Stop thinking you are a special snowflake because you ate something unclean. You know you’re in for a HLB detox when you think it’s abnormal to eat something normal. And please, no ”I’m still recovering from my sugar coma” in your next post.

And the comments. Oh, the comments.

If it’s a Healthy Living blog:

That donut looks soooooo yummy!! I want to eat it soooo bad!!

Then get your ass off, go to Tim Horton’s (if you’re Canadian) or Dunkin’ Donuts (if you’re American), and go get that fucking donut, instead of drooling in front of the computer. Unless you’re scared to gain 48lbs+ from it, of course. In that case, just keep pretending that you ate that donut, but that it landed on the blogger’s hips.

If it’s a Recovery HLB-Wannabe blog:

OMG you have such a healthy relationship with food! You’re an inspiration!! Congrats on that donut, it is sooooo scary!!

Ok. That blogger ate a donut. A fucking donut. ”Inspiration”??!!? For a donut??! Millions of Americans eat donuts every single day, for God’s sake. Stop emphasizing how it was difficult/scary, because it just associates donuts with guilt. We need to stop discriminating donuts.

3. ”Listen to your body!”

You know what? If I were to listen to my body/my mind, I would be laying all day on a couch, eating Honey Cruller Donuts, Sweet Chili Heat Doritos, Poutine, Japanese Mochis and Kabocha all day long. With liters of coffee, pop and tea. I would be 200lbs+, and I don’t really want that*.

My favorite Doritos flavour! What's yours?

Sometimes, I have to talk myself into not eating the whole house or talk myself into getting my ass off the computer and do something productive, like doing homework or workout.

*And no, not wanting to get to 200lbs+ by eating crap does not mean I’m relapsing or obsessing about my weight. Pretty common among bloggers who had EDs to get accused of being unhealthy for not wanting to be unhealthy.

4. Write about how mean that commenter was and how you *might* stop blogging

Bravo! You found the perfect way of how to get lurkers to get out of their hole and comment (that’s really hard to do) and see how many minions you have!

If you do a whole blog post about ONE fucking comment, then that commenter was probably right.

Most common example is the blogger who gets accused of supporting EDs with their ”healthy” habits:

How dare you assume I’m projecting an unhealthy image for people with EDs?!! 

I am really healthy: blood tests are fine, healthy weight (a bit on the slim side)…it is just me naturally! You are just projecting your insecurities on me because I’m healthy! You don’t know me, so shut up and don’t make assumptions on my life, because you no NOTHING! I don’t post everything I eat, I eat A LOT more than you think! 

I might take my blog down for a little while. I’m soooo hurt by this comment!

And then you have the immediate flood of ass-kissing comments:

Don’t stop blogging! We need you!!!!

Please stay strong lovie!!! You’re beautiful!!!

Fuck that commenter!! Zust zealous haterzzzz!!!

Of course, the next post is inevitably:

OMG you guys are sooooo sweet! Love you soooo much!! I’m back to blogging!

Barf. Puke. Die.

5. ”Don’t be scared of carbs/fats!”

I don’t need someone to tell me that a cinnamon roll is not going to kill me. But that’s not what gets me in those posts. It’s the hypocrisy behind it:

”EAT YOUR CARBS!” speech, followed by a bowl of Carba Nada Noodles.

”FAT ARE YOUR FRIENDS!” speech, followed by an ode to PB2 and how it tastes juste like the real thing.

Your readers are not stupid.

I don’t mind those foods. But if I eat them, it is certainly not because I don’t mind eating too much carbs/fats.

Be honest, people.

How HLB-Brainwashed Are You? + Butterscotch Chocolate Chip Protein Ice Cream

18 Nov

You will need a paper and a pencil.

1. What’s your opinion on shirataki noodles?

A) They are awesome! I don’t eat them because of their low-calorie content though, I eat them because I genuinely love them! I swear it’s not because I’m scared of carbs!! Really!!!

B) They’re ok, pretty decent for a low-calorie alternative, but if it wasn’t for the calories or carbs, I would pick the regular pasta

C) They’re disgusting, they smell like fish guts!

2. How many tubes of protein powder do you currently have in your house?

A) 4+

B) 1-3

C) None

3. How many of the following items or recipes have you tried: coconut flour, peanut flour, chia seeds, hemp protein powder, kombucha, Green smoothies, OIAJ, kale chips, protein ice cream, protein cake/muffins?

A) 5+

B) 2-4

C) 0-2 (but before it has become popular in the blogsphere)

4. How many of the following words or expressions have you used:

  • ”Get in my belly!”
  • ”You bet I ate that bad boy”
  • ”Foodgasm”
  • ”Nom nom nom”
  • ”Amazeballs!”
  • ”Awesomeness”, ”Deliciousness”…
  • ”This recipe is lifechanging!”
  • ”Chocolate? Yes please!’‘ (or any other food)

A) 3+

B) 1-2

C) None

5. Why do you work out?

A) I absolutely love the way it makes me feel! It’s not about the calories or anything though, I swear I’m honest! I juste loooooove working out and torturing myself every single day!

B) I like the endorphin rush, but if it wasn’t for the fact that it also keeps me in shape, I think I would rather be doing myself a manicure and read magazines.

C) Working out…? Does taking the stairs count?

6. What do you think of that ”What I Ate Wednesday”?

A) SO FREAKING AMAZEBALL!! It’s sooo cool to see what this popular blogger ate! I mean, look at this picture of Honeycrisp Apple! She ate an apple!!!! An apple!!!!! And if you zoom on this bowl of oatmeal, you can see that underneath the chia seeds, blueberries, greek yogurt, cottage cheese, egg whites, biscoff spread and nut butter, there’s 3 chocolate chips!!! SO AMAZEBAAAALLLLL!!!!!

B) Meh, they’re no different than Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday. They post their food diary every single day anyway.

C) I. Can’t. If I see another ”What I Ate Wednesday”, ”What I Wished I Ate Wednesday”, ”What I Realized Wednesday”, ”What I Used to Ate Wednesday”, ”What I Will Eat On Wednesday”, ”What I Worked Wednesday”, ”What I Pooped Wednesday”, I’m gonna puke.

7. When you see a recipe for (Fake) Protein Ice Cream, what do you think?

A) OMG, this blogger is a fucking genius!!! PROTEIN!!!! WOUHOOOO!!! I’m gonna kiss her/his shoes, I can’t believe it, a healthy alternative for ice cream loaded with protein!!!! OH MY GAWD!!!

B) Cool, I’ll bookmark it. Sounds not too bad for a healthy alternative. I might try it after my Dairy Queen trip.

C) No thanks. I don’t want to become a Fart Machine. Protein farts are gross.


Majority of A): Get the fuck out of here, and go into a Healthy Living Blogs Readers Anonymous group (HLBRA).

Majority of B): It’s just a matter of time for those HLBs to get you. At least you seem to have some sense of self-awareness.

Majority of C): You’re going to hate my blog.


For ice cream snobs, you can skip this recipe. It is NOT a substitute for Haagen-Dazs (or whatever it is spelled). I tried to come up with something else than ”ice cream”, but decided I have better things to do than to worry about ruining the reputation of ice cream.

I don’t know who came up with the concept first. I think bodybuilders have been eating this before the protein hype among HLBs came. Anyway.

Butterscotch Chocolate Chip Protein Ice Cream

I really need to learn how to use a camera. Or just post the recipe without picture. I think that will be better.

EDIT: Changed the picture. Still need to learn how to use a camera, though.

Makes 3-4 cups

  • 12-15 ice cubes
  • 30-35g Vanilla Whey Protein powder
  • 1 tbsp (1/4 of package) Jell-O Butterscotch Instant pudding
  • 2-3 packets of sweetener
  • ½ tsp xantham gum and ½ tsp guar gum* (if use cow milk as a liquid, you might want to cut back on the amount of thickeners)
  • 5oz water or non-dairy milk or COW milk (in this case, lower the amount of gums)
  • ~1/4 tsp butterscotch extract (optional)
  • Chocolate chips (can melt some to make a chocolate ribbon)


    1. Crush the ice cubes in the blender.
    2. Mix the protein powder, pudding powder, sweetener and gums together, and add them to the blender.
    3. Add liquid and extract, if using.
    4. Blend until there are no more ice chunks. Don’t over-blend because it heat the blender and melt the ‘ice cream’
    5. Add the chocolate chips
    6. Pour into whatever glass or bowl you have, and freeze for at least an hour (I usually wait for 2h, and let it thaw).